Moving on..

I did it for the best of both parties...I hope one day you'd understand..


Life is not a one easy ride. Who says so? Those who did, I reckon they don't really live a life. They merely live in fantasy. Everyday I tried to convince myself that I am not a bad person. That I did it for a reason. But it's far from the truth. I am a bad person. I did it for no reason.


I blamed myself everyday God knows how I really feel. I seriously know that I don't deserve to love, or to be loved right the moment I broke a person's heart.


When ppl asked, "So what exactly went wrong?". I honestly do not have an answer for that. The feeling inside is indescribable. Hard for me to comprehend. What more to convey it in form of words. The feeling is gone. And sure enough, it is the risk I am not willing to take, when your head says one thing, and your heart says another. It is funny that I used to find it hard to believe that how can you love a person one day, and the next day the feeling just washed away? And when it happened to me, I quietly understand and slowly start to believe that it can happen, that it is not impossible.


All this while I'm hanging on to him cos I'm afraid to let it go, afraid that I won't be having anyone else in my life if I do so. I'm glad that this event happened. At least I know that no matter what, I have to firm myself to believe that it is time to let this relationship go. And it is also a good way for him to realize that we were not meant for each other.


I don't really care anymore if I don't meet anyone or that I won't find that one person I want to be with. At this moment, I just want to be alone. Cos I deserve to be alone. I've had enough of breaking someone's heart.


Really had enough..