People would often say, to fight for cancer is to have a positive mind and attitude. Yes, I do believe in that. Infact, I always hope that while dad was suffering with his battle, I wish he was strong enough to pull it through. But he did not, and deep inside I know he sensed that his time was almost come to an end, and Allah has already prepared himself a better place where he would rest in peace. Indeed, I do believe in that.
People make mistakes, and nobody knows the truth behind what's going on throughout the time when my dad was fighting for cancer. I know that no matter how great he may seem as a father, he was never that saint and also did many mistakes which I believe he truly regrets. And that actually has made him a better man, a better father, a better husband and most of all a better servant to the Almighty. True what people said, it is not the journey that you have taken, it is what you decide on how you want the ending to be. And that is what matters to Allah. Afterall, He is the most Merciful and Forgiving. And for that, I am proud of you papa. You have became a person of what you should be.
And you have left the three things in dunya that can help you in Hereafter, 1) your knowledge to others 2) your charity to needy ones and 3) prayers from pious children. And I try my best to be that daughter who would pray for you day and night, hoping that you would find peace..just like how you would pray for me.
Remember all those times when you're there for me when I was in need? Your sacrifices were beyond measurable and the least I could do is to recite you with Al-Fatihah and Yassin because I believe that would be the greatest gift for you. I love you so much papa, and I miss you very dearly. I wish there would be thousands of you in this world then everyone could live in happiness. You're a great muslim, and I believe because of that, paradise has been made and perfectly done for you to live in happily for eternity. Insya Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal A lamin.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Life, as I know it.
oh, why is life so complicated? no, wait let me rephrase that. why is MY life so complicated?
"Aku percaya Allah bagi aku semua dugaan ini untuk aku mendekatkan diri pada-Nya"
Let me start off about how my whole life starts to change, is when my family first found out that my dad had been diagnosed with lung cancer, stage 4. when that happened, the whole world starts crumbling down. life seems empty, and all i could feel is sorrow.
My dad, who I mostly rely, depend, and feel the sense of security from, has his life risks with cancer. When we first heard that he was suspected with the "killer cells", the whole family did nothing but cry. tears were endless, and it even saddened me when my dad said "Nangis la puas2, lepas ni you have to be strong"
Oh dad, how can I be strong? I'm not like you! You never once complained bout your braggy children, you never once hesitated to give a helping hand, or to be there when we need you. you never once failed to fulfill our needs for as long as you can give. you never even once make us feel absence of your presence. your always there, like you know you should.
But once again, my dad has proved me wrong. I am strong. In fact, after what happened, I think I have become a stronger person. there's always a reason and a blessing in disguise for whatever tests Allah has given.
1. Our family ties become stronger
2. I may be forgetful of Him, and He wants to bring me back to the right path
3. I may done so many sins, and this could be my punishment
4. I need to slowly become more independent and start realizing that I can't live with my parents forever
And true enough, slowly I was able to embrace this test with open heart, and of course with strong and loving support from relatives and friends. And this is also the time where you realized you have so many true friends who are there for you, through thick and thin. Oh, how I am blessed :)
Papa, there must be a reason behind everything that is bestowed upon you. I believe Allah only given this test to those He believes could embrace it with patience, preserverance and strong faith. He wants you to get closer to Him, to praise Him, to remember Him, and to always be with Him for every second of the day. And I know InsyaAllah, with Allah's blessings, He will help you to recover soon as He will never give up on those who never give up on Him :)
Amin.
I believe, this is a Karma too on my side. I know that I deserved this punishment. I accept it with open heart. He wants me to show me how it feels like to have your close family fall sick, and to be left by your other loved ones at the same time. Really, really karma.
"Aku percaya Allah bagi aku semua dugaan ini untuk aku mendekatkan diri pada-Nya"
Let me start off about how my whole life starts to change, is when my family first found out that my dad had been diagnosed with lung cancer, stage 4. when that happened, the whole world starts crumbling down. life seems empty, and all i could feel is sorrow.
My dad, who I mostly rely, depend, and feel the sense of security from, has his life risks with cancer. When we first heard that he was suspected with the "killer cells", the whole family did nothing but cry. tears were endless, and it even saddened me when my dad said "Nangis la puas2, lepas ni you have to be strong"
Oh dad, how can I be strong? I'm not like you! You never once complained bout your braggy children, you never once hesitated to give a helping hand, or to be there when we need you. you never once failed to fulfill our needs for as long as you can give. you never even once make us feel absence of your presence. your always there, like you know you should.
But once again, my dad has proved me wrong. I am strong. In fact, after what happened, I think I have become a stronger person. there's always a reason and a blessing in disguise for whatever tests Allah has given.
1. Our family ties become stronger
2. I may be forgetful of Him, and He wants to bring me back to the right path
3. I may done so many sins, and this could be my punishment
4. I need to slowly become more independent and start realizing that I can't live with my parents forever
And true enough, slowly I was able to embrace this test with open heart, and of course with strong and loving support from relatives and friends. And this is also the time where you realized you have so many true friends who are there for you, through thick and thin. Oh, how I am blessed :)
Papa, there must be a reason behind everything that is bestowed upon you. I believe Allah only given this test to those He believes could embrace it with patience, preserverance and strong faith. He wants you to get closer to Him, to praise Him, to remember Him, and to always be with Him for every second of the day. And I know InsyaAllah, with Allah's blessings, He will help you to recover soon as He will never give up on those who never give up on Him :)
Amin.
I believe, this is a Karma too on my side. I know that I deserved this punishment. I accept it with open heart. He wants me to show me how it feels like to have your close family fall sick, and to be left by your other loved ones at the same time. Really, really karma.
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