People would often say, to fight for cancer is to have a positive mind and attitude. Yes, I do believe in that. Infact, I always hope that while dad was suffering with his battle, I wish he was strong enough to pull it through. But he did not, and deep inside I know he sensed that his time was almost come to an end, and Allah has already prepared himself a better place where he would rest in peace. Indeed, I do believe in that.
People make mistakes, and nobody knows the truth behind what's going on throughout the time when my dad was fighting for cancer. I know that no matter how great he may seem as a father, he was never that saint and also did many mistakes which I believe he truly regrets. And that actually has made him a better man, a better father, a better husband and most of all a better servant to the Almighty. True what people said, it is not the journey that you have taken, it is what you decide on how you want the ending to be. And that is what matters to Allah. Afterall, He is the most Merciful and Forgiving. And for that, I am proud of you papa. You have became a person of what you should be.
And you have left the three things in dunya that can help you in Hereafter, 1) your knowledge to others 2) your charity to needy ones and 3) prayers from pious children. And I try my best to be that daughter who would pray for you day and night, hoping that you would find peace..just like how you would pray for me.
Remember all those times when you're there for me when I was in need? Your sacrifices were beyond measurable and the least I could do is to recite you with Al-Fatihah and Yassin because I believe that would be the greatest gift for you. I love you so much papa, and I miss you very dearly. I wish there would be thousands of you in this world then everyone could live in happiness. You're a great muslim, and I believe because of that, paradise has been made and perfectly done for you to live in happily for eternity. Insya Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal A lamin.
